The ending of Human-clad monster is now the saddest thing for me to watch. The members’ smiling face, the fans’ tears, and that beautiful piano version of 闇に降る奇跡. It hurts so much more to think D’espairsRay might already know this was their last live together, while the fans, though some might have doubt, probably still believed they would come back again. By the way I’m glad they didn’t hold a so-called last live then release a last live DVD like many other bands do. It would be very disappointed if they did, but they didn’t.
When I got the ticket to see TMH4N’S live, how happy I was just to think I was gonna meet Tsukasa and Zero again. But it ended up bitter as hell to see they stand there with three strange guys, play songs not by D’espairsRay sung by a voice not Hizumi’s. I was supposed to enjoy it as Tsukasa and Zero looked cool and played cool as ever, but I just can’t. Their music is good, at least the best among the bands I saw that day, but they are nowhere near D’espairsRay. I’m sorry to say such a stupid thing but to me, ディスパじゃないと。
I would die to see them again, I’m serious.
